Friends

Are friends real? Or is it just a myth. Only when you benefit each other, can you be friends. Once the benefit is gone, lives drift apart. At least, that seems to be the way with so many people, and so many things.

We are friends because you thought you can learn something from me, because you thought you can gain something from me. When I decided to stop talking, stop exploding, stop pretending to be great, you lost your interest. How unfortunate, for I've decided merely to rest a bit.

Right now for me isn't the time to be glowing, right now and for the next few years, it is going to be the hard trial of learning, re-learning, experimenting, re-experimenting, absorbing, re-absorbing, taking as much knowledge from every field I touch as I can. Always, I've felt, there's a time limitation. 30 years old, by then, I have to be accomplished in my own definition. I have to accomplish what some people called impossible, I have to prove to myself that my motto was right: Nothing is impossible! As long as you try. And, when you try, do try very hard, or else, don't even start.

Don't know why, I've became less and less gemini, more and more something else. Still, I have, I hope, the same wit and cheerfulness of a gemini, but something else grows inside of me. That little bubble of stubborness, persistance, the madness to perfect, to win, to conquer, to be better than expected... The desire to win, the desire to be stable, to take responsibility, no matter how great, how hard, how tiring, and still being able to accomplish my dreams.

1. Nothing is impossible as long as you are willing to make it possible.
2. You don't find time, you make time.
3. There's no such thing as luck, there's only good choice.
4. You make the choice, you take the responsibilities.
5. Anyone but for the first place are losers, are you a loser?
6. Just be happy!
7. Everyone's an individual, everyone is to be respected for their decisions, even if you cannot agree.
8. There's a reason for everything. There's a pro, and a con.
9. The world isn't black and white, nothing is good or evil. It's all just the question of reasoning.
10. Make believe, make com true.

Some people might sneer at the philosophy of my life, but so far, it's proven to suit my personality. At least... I'm generally happy. Sad once a month for hateful female reasons, but otherwise almost always energetic and cheerful (for those who know me, you had to admit thus). Some might think it's stupid to live so stressed out, but then, it makes me happy to be a workaholic who complains about having too much work because it's amusing to complain sometimes. :P I am who I am.