The Facebook.com

It's an amazing thing. (Just promised myself to stop being so negative about things)...

Spent a lot of time on it today, to be honest, but, not a bad thing. I discovered old friends, new friends, old love, new love, old fun, new fun...

Tali, Mindy, Ben, Pyumm ( ? )... Dreamed of Ohio again after forgetting it.

I guess I am the truely Nostalgic type. Living in the past. Good that recently I've been really living in the present (amazing, really).

Each of these friends are people I really admired, even as a small child. Each of them fascinates me. It's funny, I'm as rude as a bull, but I am constantly fascinated by people, some times a bit intimidated by their accomplishments... Yet, I never really look at the full picture, the right picture, the real picture... We were once the same, and they never gave up on their dreams... But I did. I let someone else start to decide for me, and I lost control of my life to him. Maybe he loves me, but he can't be me, and I can't be him.

So, it's not about rebellion anymore. It's merely about being me. I always talk about wanting to be me, always screaming for being me, but I am the last person who really did that. And then I grieve, I blue down, I melt into misery for not having the freedom to be myself. No one can tell me what to do except for myself.

So here goes. I am me. :) I want to be more of me, and I can feel it... more and more and more...