Determination

I am determined not to be beaten by this sorrow and this heaviness. I will fight it with a sun shining smile. :)

No matter what. Come what may. Come what may.

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Application time near!

Grrrr

*sigh*

Communication is a lesson still be to learned. So hard, so very hard, especially for someone who has been sitting in front of the computer for most of her last five years, *sigh*. But, my EQ is growing. At least now I don't get too edgy about meetings, etc. It's a learning process, and it's a very good one as well.

It hasn't ended.... *sigh* I need to put more heart into it, both of my other work, to create something more fascinating.

Smile... It's God's grace to have you challenged. So, where do we go from here and now? Smile~

nuts

http://www.justin.tv/2007/3/26/18

very... American.

Rephrase... very... Asian-American...

(No offense, Chris)

To be calm

I've decided to be calm. Let the agitation recede. Just calmly being who I am and doing things how I want to do them. Just calmly growing older. Just calmly being me.

Time, it suddenly feels, will be flowing much faster from now on. Things, it seems, will turn out just fine for me and for us. It's a mere understanding, just a feeling.

Only in the quiet of the heart can anyone do anything in particular, only when the heart is as quiet and gentle as the water flowing down the hills.

Let's move somewhere with nature, and a lot of it.

I would like to be a hermit, would you like to be with me too?

Business people

The more I am in this business, the more I like them, because the more we can understand each other and the more we can communicate.

For many business people, Nu Skin isn't a big deal, cuz they will all tell you as well that it IS a trend, only it's a very harsh and hard path to go.

I do admit that it IS, but maybe that is also the fun part of it.

I took a break from the business this afternoon to handle and to think about another business. Then I have to make more arrangments for business next week. Grrrr... Wish me luck... :)

Actually... it's not about luck, but about being forceful enough to accomplish our dreams.

Good fish sayings

Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day; give him a religion, and he'll starve to death while praying for a fish. ~Author Unknown

Scholars have long known that fishing eventually turns men into philosophers. Unfortunately, it is almost impossible to buy decent tackle on a philosopher's salary. ~Patrick F. McManus

[C]atching fish is as incidental to fishing as making babies is to fucking. ~William Humphrey
(interesting)

May the holes in your net be no larger than the fish in it. ~Irish Blessing

Somebody just back of you while you are fishing is as bad as someone looking over your shoulder while you write a letter to your girl. ~Ernest Hemingway

Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day. ~Author Unknown

Many men go fishing all of their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after. ~Henry David Thoreau

If people concentrated on the really important things in life, there'd be a shortage of fishing poles. ~Doug Larson

Fishing is boring, unless you catch an actual fish, and then it is disgusting. ~Dave Barry
(one of my fav)

Give a man a fish and he has food for a day; teach him how to fish and you can get rid of him for the entire weekend. ~Zenna Schaffer
(seems to be the general consensus)

Even if you've been fishing for three hours and haven't gotten anything except poison ivy and sunburn, you're still better off than the worm. ~Author Unknown

Good things come to those who bait. ~Author Unknown
(a definite)

You must lose a fly to catch a trout. ~George Herbert
(this i totally agree)

Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day; give him a religion, and he'll starve to death while praying for a fish. ~Author Unknown
(how about something in between?)

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Suddenly understanding the beauty of fishing and am thinking, might I join that game one day (greatly possible).

Stupid girl

Hum... I like this video... just wondering, how many of us want to become the stupid girls...

money

quite sick of the talk about money. yet can't escape it. dread.

Amazing

It take a lot of soul, a lot of strength, a lot of fame to speak and to be heard. I really liked this song. The only sad thing is, what will this song do? What difference will it make? When we look at the world, we wonder... how does a speck of sand change this land?

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If everyone would understand that there's more than just the self in the game, perhaps the world will be a better place yet.

Passion

My political science professor once said, passion comes from suffering, and passion is what makes people great. WIth passion, we can do anything, we can achieve anything, we are everything. When I look back on this whole endeavour, looking at the up coming adventure, looking at myself in my present state, I can see passion. What I once said about us being unpassionate couple, that, relating to the degree of our suffering, is not so. We do suffer. And we suffer in the most extreme of all suffering of mankind. We suffer with longing, not desire, but longing. The longing to merely make a small physical contact, even as slight as a grace of the hand, that longing lodges itself in the souls of the man and the woman, and carves blood out of their heart day by day. That suffering, is a passion, and a great one, it is. Out from this passion, the impossible can come to be. A visit to a land far faraway. A new language attained. A new life exchanged and gained. A past lost, but not forgotten, the nostalgia cut away.

There are more to come yet, this passion. There are more to come yet, this challenge. Yet, we got in the jungle together, so why should we not get out together? Understanding that every moment of yearning, every moment of missing, every moment that we spent suffering, so does our passion grow. And out of this passion, a greater power can be distilled. Through this power, we will move the islands apart, and put you next to me in an eternal grace.

Expression

And the question is not the devotion, but the question IS the action. You can feel the whole world in your heart but without expressing that world, no one can see it. You can feel eternity in your heart, but without expressing that eternity, no one can understand it. Not only so, no... You have to express it in a way that the other person may feel it, without such, none of it is complete, and none important, and none worthy of any value but to the mind of the beholder, locked up on the abyss of the lonely soul, complaining of not being understood, when in reality, you are the only person blocking yourself from being understood.

The question of efficiency isn't really efficiency either, it is merely the question of how much attention and heart you put in one work, and whether or not you allow yourself to be efficient. A truthful believe is that all human creatures are efficient by nature, for that is the instinct of life, but that we all block our own efficiency with horrible stupidity we learn later in life, laziness, laxness, rough and unnecessary emotions, etc.

We can all be devoted and efficient, if we wish of it so, only... somehow it will make us less human, more robotic, more functional, and less artistic.

The question about love isn't really whether you love someone or not, but whether that someone can feel that love. If he feels it, and feels the joy sprining from the attention of love, then you have succeed in loving someone. Otherwise, you can feel all the love in your heart, be tortured by it, hurt by it, crumble because of it, feel the youthful pain coming from it, but then never to really have loved. Maybe that's why we always question it, always wonder about it, always wanting ot know how to get through with it... how to express it... how to feel it...

Sometimes I really wish I can express more of how I am feeling through something other than just words. It seems like words are the only media to my heart, the only method for me to open up. Otherwise, I cannot. I cannot be the tender girl like most girls maybe, I am harsh, serious, and most of the times, not quite here. I am in there, in the depth of it all, in the depther of the mind, in the depth of my mind.

I wish I can express... But then, I know no better way... Then perhaps, it is time to just believe...

I used to believe that I was something special. Then, I had my crash down. In front of my parents, I felt the very sense of disappointment. The sense of being worthiless. The sense that I am, in reality, nothing more than a simple peasant. I'm no smarter, I'm nothing unique, I am.... just another sand walking in a sea of sands.

Then, I decided, that whether or not we are special depends not on what we are born with. We are special because we decide to be special. We are special because we believe that we are. Every one of us are special in one way or the other.

Special...