Saturday, June 30, 2007

Old friends are gold

Even after years and months and weeks and days and longer than imaginable durations...

you speak to each other, and still find that mutual language.

Old friends are gold, and friends do last forever.

很認真的思考了人生

現在這個階段要一定的努力一定的往前一定的衝一定的猛一定的不放棄一定的不要被打敗

現在的我,要更加油!

不夠,一切都不夠!要成功,要夢想,就要往前筆直的衝~

不要害怕!壓力是一定會有,克服它,就有一個更美麗的天空!

Friday, June 29, 2007

Personality test

Did a personality test the other day, was quite accurate. Well, I liked it probably because it was a very positive one. Seems like I'm just another passionate, insane person who desparately want to have a better life and get more out of life as a whole. Not that bad of an idea, actually, to be honest. :P

June 29, 2007

Almost past my month. Today was a lovely day filled with mindless thoughts. Why do I spend so much time doing nothing when I should be doing something? This, I often wonder at myself. Me and my dreadfully lazy self, the self that sits for hours playing games online and browsing websites. Not been in the website browsing mood lately, however, I should pick it up again. It's a frightening world, indeed, but information is information. The more the better, the deeper the greater.

Part of this original brain has come to a dead-stop, not the first time, and not the last time. It's like as if it demands some rest, although this time, time simply will not allow it. The physical body demands action, too much action, so much that the brain, if not able to fulfill it, will be conquered by this rising desire.

A lot of thoughts are running in my mind and I am constantly wondering if it will clear up. Perhaps a few books more will help it clear itself. There was a line from a msn contact: Great mind discuss ideas, average mind discuss events and weak mind discuss people. My mentor(s) say: Spend the time doing something, instead of worrying about the people who doesn't matter at all.

A friend of mine mentioned something about self-refusal, and acceptance of the past self, thoughts of the future self. I always liked to think of my future as being more successful than now, yet, I always feel, when looking back, that I only become less and less successful. Maybe that's too much unnecessary thinking, indeed. Think about ideas, girl! You want to be a great mind, no?

The rains fell side-ways today. Had an umbrella with me, but still, it showered into my body. Wasn't a very successful shower, however, only partially got me. One of those days when your determination to do something can be truly defined. If you are determined, you'd accomplish anything. If not, well, there's never the consideration of if not. Do or do not, there is no try.

Mother asked... maybe it's your ears that makes you so insecure and so unconfident. Wouldn't want to think of it, but maybe. Maybe it's the ears that makes me so ambitious and wanting, maybe. Ambition, a very wicked thing. It's the one thing that might make one great, but it is also the thing that will keep Gates lonely. The competitive genes are in our body, given by mother nature, and will never go away, not one step of the day.

All my friends are so amazing, everyone I meet are amazing... what to do with this ambition?

We can but endure it.

Work. I love it. I seriously do. I love the feeling of not being allowed to rest because there are too much either work or fun or whatever to do. Time is so scarce. We only live so long. Maybe I shouldn't say it's work that I love, but that I love to be doing something productive, something nice, something lasting, something... that ends up in something. It's far too fascinating, that exciting sensation, the feeling of speed, of everything.

Today I feel melancholic

Tired from work.

Today, I feel melancholic. Missing...

A sky filled with stars, and a Mars somewhere inside...

Shhhhhhhh......

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

我看到世界的另一端

那是彩色的你知道嗎?

可惜的是,你似乎不懂我嚮往的那個世界。

而我害怕在此逗留,停滯而不前進。

上帝說過你是我的人選…

你會與我同進退嗎?

在這個女人靠不了男人的年代,沒有必要justify任何得事情。

我也不會在去炫耀我自己(沒羽毛偏說有羽毛)

因為眼前的生活過好比一切都更重要。

比過去更重要,也比未來更重要。

你的夢,你要如何達成它?

work........

Work......... c'est tout

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Definitely going brain-dead

Groar... another one of those very painful painful painful moments
when i feel like my brain just isn't functioning anymore, well, it isn't
and i am not entirely sure what exactly i am doing except the fact that i am actually
surprisingly doing something..........

and GOD said... "MURDER"! and one more brain-cell died.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Wayne's World

Wicked.

Okay, I know it's wicked late to be seeing this movie, but anyways, I just did (after I don't know how many years)... :P

It's a really wicked movie. :P I liked it a lot, although my mother's opinion is... she had no idea what's going on.

It was fun, and, well... just fun to watch. :)

Somehow.......... still reminds me of... =.= a monkey... ZRO

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Crush

My over-powering energy, lost at direction, is slowly crushing down into pieces the shallow relationships i have with the few which i treasure. this energy, like that of the sun, never-ending, in a fussion, threatening to takeaway everything with it into a burning hell of nothing and nothing and nothing. so i deprived myself of the joy and love and sweetness of companionship, and in doing so, crushing it even more until nothing is left but a shattering emptiness. it's not that i don't feel, i feel too much. it's not the i am not patient, but time goes by too slowly for me. and what of a future?

what is it that always i am waiting?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Something for TWN

If you wanna do something for TWN, you have to put your heart here first.

Then, you have to make small actions.

Then, you have to get into business.

This, is an island of business, of business people, the past and present and future.

Then, you have to have faith, absolute faith in this island and this country.

Then, you have to see the world, see the size of the world, see how far we can go.

Then, you have to be famous, make Taiwan famous with you.

Then, you have to come from a common family, a simple background, and work yourself up.

Why? Because that's the power of Taiwan. Not the bureaucracy, not the rich, not the fancy, but the common.

And you know, that's why we need to be equal here, because in Taiwan... true Democracy CAN happen.

With the right leader, the right directions...

We can be a true jewel, carved from a raw diamond stone.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Headaches

The webworld is so big, I wonder how does one survive in this mud-puddle?!

Headaches.... ><

Think, Naomi! Think!

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Gosh! They've been in this all their lives, they've lived their lives out-thinking the big guys...
Just what makes you think you can out-think them?

If you can't compete with them, co-operate with them... stupid... ><

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Stress, Pressure, Depression

I've been working relatively more than before (since Finland), but still not enough for my standard....

I've been working on some relatively interesting projects and getting my head moving, but not enough for my standard...

Or, is it the social standard, and not mine?

Stress, Pressure, Depression... when did that become an everyday thing?

Browse the titles of all the msn nicknames, what do you see? All these struggles, all these people seeking a way out of life, a way to breathe... just a breathe...

Determination! Persistance! All these shouts! Endless shouts and shouts and shouts!

What exactly is the problem? Especially when I always here these things from people whom I respect. Really amazing people who can take the world into their hands with ease worrying themselves to death and then... loosing the world from their worries.

Why aren't life as simple as before? Why have we made everything more complicated, harder to understand, harder to learn, harder to improve, harder to live?

Somehow I think it's not that people are not determined enough, it's that since they have been pushed and pushed and pushed all their lives, they are getting tired. Especially Asians.

Imagine not sleeping enough all your life. No wonder we are short.

Imagine not being allowed to question the authority. No wonder we are quiet.

Imagine so many things.

Maybe just Asians....

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Will the developing countries ever become developed?

I would say, not really.

Who gains the most from China's mass market?

The foreign investers, of course... and them, from those "Developed" nations.

Raindrops keep falling on my head...







Distractions

Can't focus.

Just heard from another team of their progress, and now feeling a bit horrible for my lack (but then, they have 9 people working together, each in charge of one or two things... we have... hum... don't wanna talk about it). ><

FOCUS!

Work away, girl! work away!

Bullet with Butterfly Wings - Smashing Pumpkin

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

(chorus)
Even though I know - I suppose Ill show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage (2x)
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage

Now Im naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show?
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got when you feel the same

(chorus)

(chorus 2)
Tell me Im the only one
Tell me theres no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me Im the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

(chorus)
(chorus 2)

Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved

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The world is still too big, just now it's a big big vampire, that's all...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Very cute video



Doesn't this remind you of highschool times? :) Nostalgia, definitely I am getting the full-batch of it, whatever I had not before.

It makes me really want to cherish everything I have right now. Especially friendship.



Somehow it feels like actually... Taiwanese people are... very... cute... :) We never grow up. :P



Really adorable and funny... :P



This is nice... :)

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If you can understand the lyrics, you can see part of the Taiwanese spirit. We're passionate people, full of life and smile. We are daring, daring to love, to get what we want. :) Or, this is what the video tells.

Chthonic (Taiwan Metal Band)



What i found interesting is the instrument used. Erhu is a very traditional Chinese instrument, however, it doesn't provide strong enough of a feel to the music. It's very violin sounding, perhaps the reason why it "fits" somewhat. However, what about more traditional, even less western sounding instruments?

However... the erhu really gives it a nice touch~ :)

I don't like the way they look though... yet, thanks to them, we've actually tried at this genre... :P



Hum......... hum....... hum.......

I guess the thing is that they don't feel natural enough... @@ I wonder how to make this fit with our language?!



At least... it's not... "j-pop/rock" style... @@

Lapland

Wouldn't it be nice to travel there again.

A guitar in hand. A voice in stand. A book or two...

And snow, and sauna, and cold ice, and Lapin Kulta, and Lordi, and Apocalyptica....

And reindeer, and solitude, and wilderness, and music...

And art, and nights, and two hour day-time, and drunk santas...

And fireplaces, and sausages, and marshmellows, and Finlandia...

And Salmiakki, and heavy metal, and Metallica, and Oomph!, and Tool...

And Finnish nose, and pink sunrise, and skiing, and fucking expensive restraunts, and frozen trees...

And the northern light, and fucking cold, and abolute quietness, and hibernation...

And moikka, and heippa, and Finnish language, and elves on the run...

And nostalgia, and only us with memories, and red-wine too much, and card-playing...

And a Finland we all remember... and a beautiful winter...

And a reunion, with the land of dreams...

How I miss Finland... and how there I wish to be...

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Lapland, the total ideal of what I call "solitude heaven"... :P

Finland, the total ideal of what I call "marvelous place to live"... :P

To Q

Learn Chinese. It won't kill u. lofl...

Monday, June 18, 2007

To my Helsinki darlings

And so, another year has passed. How we miss each other...

All you darlings, Raquel, Mace, Rod, Ana Maria, Raquel, Xin, Som, Miriam, Quintin, Tamas, Pavel, Katerina, Agustin, Armando, Graham, Uye, Maxim, Siem, Lukas, Miguel, Dominik, Fei, Melodie (:P), Jeni, Zuzana, Frederico, Inga, Flavien, JD, Taylor, Jiabin, Jennifer, Lucy, Bin, Martin, Ben, Devon, Johanna, Mikael, Mikko, Timmo, Reima, Kaelle, Bjor, Joonas, Frank, Xin, Fabricio, Pierre, Miguel (architect), Gaonan, Gab, Charlotte, Leo, Ana, Squirrel, Eeva, Eva, Hitomi, Niko, Marta, Rachel,... hopefully I didn't miss anyone on this list... ><

I miss you all... and all the lovely finns I met there, and all the lovely people i met in general.

Wouldn't it be great to have a big reunion in Helsinki at Barfly? :P

Despite the fact I didn't learn much academically in Finland, I did learn a lot about life and about friendship and about treasuring people. Each of these individuals I met there are craved into my memory in the most beautiful manner. All the ups and downs, good and bads.

My father commented the other day that no friend of mine remembers me. I think, and am sure that no matter how time moves and changes, we are still all good friends. :) 10 years, 20 years from now, we will still be good friends. :)

Wherever you are in the world. :)

Friday, June 15, 2007

Funny news

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6751777.stm

And, i would say, this is the reason why people want FREEDOM!!! (stupid conservatives)

What a day~

What a day, filled with surprises... :)

24... what does it mean to be 24? For me, it means everything... it's the time I set as the turning point of life, either up or either down...

All ups today... :) So, I take it it's uphill from here... :) Or, matters not how, I'll make it uphills from here... :)

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Thx 2 all the lovely people wishing me blessings around the world...

And... I discovered that it might not be such a bad idea to be a bit less, hum, mysterious sometimes~ :P

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Just a thought

Does meeting people online count as meeting people?

My fortune the other day was that I'd meet either a stranger or someone I liked so I should watch my appearance... Didn't meet anyone worth mentioning physically, met a lot of people online though...

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Am I finally turning into a geek?

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

More Die Happy

When I watch these videos, I wonder... have I missed out too much in life?







Need..... more.... ><

Monday, June 11, 2007

Edening Contemporary

Nothing and quiet and fragile moments with pain the soul is held
Waiting, what for the waiting? For something of someone never comes
White paper, black characters, hand leads mind, pend leads hand, who leads pen?
And the fated reality still sits on the ghostly steps of a rainful rainful day
Just another rainful rainful day, when the mind stops to think and nothing
Nothing and quiet and fragile moments stretch accross this horizon
The lonely wait, the momentary wait, the passive wait, the never ending wait
For this sky to change, to color and change and the grey to go away
For this moment to pass, to pass on into something else, something less wasting
White paper, black words, who leads who in this game?
Red of red, plucked from the virgin tree, the taste of Eden Lost in Contemporary.

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excuse the poor composition, rusty little thing

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Girls in the industry - Die Happy

They actually really do sound happy... @@

Smile



This video is wicked nice~

L'Ame Immortelle

Very lovely voice.... I like them...



YouTube can be lovely~



Nice clip... goosebumps~ ><

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Orgasmatic Music

freaky...

Apparently, I've been feeling a bit out of place all day today, but I just turned on Godsmack on my ipod, and... WOW

I get little giggles going on all over my body. Just like when I saw beautiful Berlin.

Wicked, just discovered my Orgasmatic music.

(Yes, it's been officially a month since I've been addicted to them, literally...)

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okay, time to get back into research for these music, how is it made?

Would have been great if true

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/6733203.stm

Would have been great if it was true, this green-blooded man.

I've never shed green-blood myself, but I still believe that one day, Martians will be back looking for us.

But then, actually Martians don't shed green blood... :P They shed same with us. Maybe that's why Mars is so red, all the soil is rich in iron from the deceased in the past. Hum, could be an interesting theory. :P

Still, would have been great if true, at least then, I can laugh in the face of scientists and say, "Not everything can be explained by science!"

Hardcore over-view

When I was at the party at Bamblero in Panama City, I think it was Alfredo or someone else who said that I'm really hardcore. Well, I've always been hardcore. 40 % liqour out the bottle, 6 hours dancing non-stop, all nighters, etc. The only thing I haven't been hardcore with over the past 4 years or so is studies. @@ I mean, I was too busy being a hardcore partier, but I don't actually regret it. :P At least, I had a life, and a life worth envying. :) At least I was happy in general, happy to the degree that it might make friends jealous.

Hardcore, I like that, and I prefer being hardcore all the way. :) (okay, keep your thinking in the cage)... :P

Friday, June 08, 2007

rain rain rain

It's been rainning ever since I got back from Panama (of which, I still haven't finished writing about... :P).

I think it'll keep raining for another decades or so. Something funny about the climate? Definitely. The rainning season for Taiwan is somewhat in April and May, not June. We had serious dry winter, and now serious rainny summer, weird. ><

Have to admit that the weather is starting to scare me. The weather, the world news, the local news, etc. SCARY!

What can we do about it? Revolutionalize the world. :P

A finite of infinites

1. A friend just told me that I can talk to him anytime when I am not busy cuz he is online 24/7.

2. I just got out of a jet-lag (or I hope I did).

3. Time is a bit disoriented for me at the moment (as always).

The combination of the above three just got me thinking about the concept of time and the feeling of infinite within the finite.

Life, is finite, yet somehow it always feels endless. They say that technically you won't feel that life is ending until moments before it does. Maybe it is a gift given to us by GOD then, to live in an infinite way. You see, any miracle can be accomplished within this infinity.

"Time, what a tricky little thing." - Larry from 'Closer'.

If you really think about it, what is the meaning of time? We, as humans, are the ones who set the clock, set a finity to our time. There's the minutes passing, the hours ending, the end of "a day", etc. There must be once in the past a time when people simply thought, "Oh, the sun sets and rises and sets and rises, so..... what? it will keep setting and rising and setting and rising..."

Okay, technically when I write, I tend not to know what I am writing or if my writing makes any sense because I tend not to really be me when I am writing which makes the full content of this absolutely stupidly awkward sounding.

Okay... the above is more or less a complain from someone who's totally confused with time and have been doing the wonderful job of chasing time for a long time.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

When we are old enough to feel it...

When we are old enough to feel the world, we are sad.

Who can we blame except for ourselves for all this pain that is running all around the world? All these sorrow, all these bloodshed. Sometimes we may wonder if God has abandoned us, but the reality is that we have abandoned God. We have set ourselves on a path of destruction.

Every day I sit here waiting for the day when the world ends. It will end. It will end much faster and much sooner than we expect. What little peace we have in our house-hold, even that, may no longer exist.

I wish I was living in the medieval times.

Perhaps the real development of history... the spiral development, isn't going up but going down, like down a toilet.

What does it matter what we do? What does it matter what dreams we have? What does it matter... for anything at all?

All the golden ages are in the past, what is to come of the future? We work our asses off to make lives even harder for our childrens. The world is more polluted, more violent, more of anything but good.

If we are old enough to really feel the world, we will be sad.

What can we do then? Tired of surviving. Is there still anything that can be done?! Make a difference, make a change, make the world a better place.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

上司須承擔所有後果 - 聯合報

昨天在聯合報上看到一篇文章,寫的是:上司須承擔所有後果

在所有組織行為裡,最遭的情況莫過於在出差錯時,上司突然忘卻責任,或是歸咎部屬。在公司裡,上司與部屬就是一體,因為你是領導人,不須承擔所有後果,無論好壞。

然而有時候,上司無法看到與接觸所有部屬,尤其是大公司,在這種情況下,他們不需為一、兩名不校園供搞怪行負責,但他們有責任實施嚴密的控管制度,抓出這些不肖員工,在察覺有員工出狀況時,也不應等閒視之。上司不是巡街員警,但他們需確保有人做這項工作。


(威爾許談致勝)

Mission Three

Wicked kool. Sounds like a real neat project in the D.C. area. :) Nicely set.

*note: for fruit from other parts of the world, you can do fast friged delivery within three days, which will keep fruit just as fresh. In this manner, you can get any type of farm goods from all around. At least, that's how we do it in Taiwan. We've gotta have this system, cuz we're totally dependent on importing food, and we're wicked about freshness.... lol

*note: if you are interested, i'll see if i can find some places for you guys to see in Taiwan. my parents know some tea planters. :P

Monday, June 04, 2007

I want...

to win...

And I will...